My Horoscope Has Been On Point

Alright ya’ll so I am a very spiritual person. The energy and vibes of others create a certain energy for me. If I am feeling negative vibes, best believe I will be out.

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I learned the I cannot function around negative people. It just isn’t my life style. Being that I am all spiritual and stuff. I started reading up on my horoscope. ( Thanks to my BFF Kiaina). For the last few days, it has literally been telling me that I need to take a stance with my emotions and my passions because people are ready to listen. It also has been telling me that my past relationships with people are going to reappear so do not be shock about it. It wants me to stand up to the past and let it know what exactly I want. Girl, let me tell you how much these past few days have been. It’s scary to know that some random person writing these blurbs on my horoscope knows the vibes and energy of my life.

The thoughtfulness of this post is not to become spiritual or read up on your horoscope every single day. This post is about standing up for what you believe because people are listening even though you think they are not and also dealing with your past that is trying to re-enter your life. Sometimes my goals for BBF is super high, but I also create small goals for myself and I have to be realistic sometimes as well. I can’t compare my success with anyone else’s because everyone measure their success so differently. Regardless on if I think I am not making a change, a change is happening and it’s impacting someone. Moreover, don’t be rude or nasty about past situations, try to be open on why they are re-entering your life. However, if you left certain relationships in the past, tell yourself why they were left in the past and how much you have grown from not having them in your life. Most importantly, think about how positive and vibrant your life has been by dropping off bad vibes that drained your aura.

June 21st Horoscope : Today is an excellent day to say exactly how you feel, Aquarius. Your thinking is sharp and clear. Once you start talking, you may never stop. People will listen extra carefully to your words. You have a great deal of influence, so realize how much impact you have on the environment. You will be able to accomplish a lot.

June 22nd Horoscope : Be aggressive with your thoughts today, Aquarius. You might feel a bit emotionally detached. You will most certainly want your freedom. Spend some time alone to sort things out. An ex from years ago might appear on your doorstep, so don’t be too surprised when he or she shows up. Take a nonjudgmental attitude toward everything you encounter.

P.S. I read these mid-day or after my day is over. Sometimes I feel like reading them at the start of your day well actually set the tone of how your day plays out. You may even put yourself in certain situations that makes this horoscope occur. 

Entry: Tanaya 

 

They Tried ME, but the Blessings Still Came

So as I go into my senior year of college, I have come to the realization that I will soon be a real adult lol. As in like working a 9-5, paying bills and taking all the responsilbiites that my mom has been dealing with for the last 21 years. Anyway, being that it is summer and all. Yoga-better-person-1.-patient.gifMy school has encouraged me to get an internship that focuses on my major or passion, and most importantly an internship that can give me a permeant job when I graduate. I found an internship that focuses heavily on my passion of empowering young women of color, but lord they tested my patience.

Throughout the process of getting this internship, there were many signs that told me that it was not the fit for me. I ignored the signs because I really wanted to be apart of an internship that stood for what I loved most. However, I realized that my happiness for the job was slowly dripping away. I figured out it would be best to drop the internship and find another internship that interest me. Ignoring signs are sometimes not good because those signs tend to know what is best for you. Sometimes the things you love will come to you, but it may not be good for you or your happiness. I am proud to say that I found another internships that fulfills my passion of helping young women succeed in life.

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Thoughtfulness: When you feel like something is not for you, let it go. Your time will come around and when it does it will come with greatness.

Entry: Tanaya

Baby you summer time fine

Summa’ Summa’ Summa tiiiiime….

I mean apart from suffering from Bostons Bipolar weather; i’ve been thinking about the summer and all the opportunities there are with all this “free” time. I want to lose weight, I want my youtube page to get better, I want a job that pays me 3 times minimum wage lol, but what am I GOING to do.

I think the summer time is a time that most people take to have all the fun they don’t get to have during the school year or work  year. What we don’t make enough time for is self evaluation and progress. Like CHANGE don’t happen overnight and we all want something better or ourselves….I hope.giphy lol but this isn’t.

Then there are some people that  overthink CHANGE and find so many things wrong within themselves that they want to be different. Those people are sometimes the same people that aspire to be someone they aren’t Whether that be how they look or how they act. But that isn’t what evaluation and relaxation is about. It is the complete opposite. Take time to be alone and understand who you are and where you stand as an individual. THEN decide what you want for yourself, not because someone else has or does or wear, but because you would want it to be.

Imagine yourself with all of the amenities and changes you want and don’t compare it to any other person. With all the time the summer may bring, you can find parts of yourself that you completely ignored because you were busy. This is a MENTAL thing, it’s about the mind and the body. The only MIND and Body that you have.

So get a journal and write in it or grab that book you’ve been saying “oh I need to read that”. Do those things that you want to change or improve and watch how MENTALLY relieved you are at the end of summer;)

Entry: Akeda

They Still Gonna Talk Regardless 


People are going to talk about you until the day you die whether it’s positive or negative. It is up to you to decided how the comments will effect you. If it’s a negative just step away from those people or just be nice to them. Niceness always gets under their skin. For those who make negative comments behind your back but can even step to you to say what they gotta say PLEASE I REPEAT PLEASE DONT PAY THEM KNOW MIND. They don’t even have the guts to step to your face and say how they feel about you. 

Thoughtful Thursday thoughts just be kind to whoever has anything to say to you. 

Entry : Tanaya 

Kiaina’s Garden 

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There are some moments in life that we chose to forget or at least try to forget. For a long time I took moments that I did not want to deal with, and suppressed them deep down because they hurt too much to think about. Now that I’m in college and find myself more alone I think more and more about the things that hurt me. I never knew how to express myself at all, but I am a vocal person. I just always thought I would be weak if I showed people how they hurt me. Because of everything that I have been going through I have decided to push myself to deal with these issues because I no longer want to think about them negatively I want them to only be things that have built me into a stronger person. I decided to make these thoughts and memories into a garden in my head. The reason why I decided to make these things into s garden is because a garden needs light and nurture, and at this point in life I’m ready to open up more to deal with these issues. My garden is the most beautiful place and now I go there to seek solace especially while here at school. To have started to free my mind of the negativity I find myself waking up earlier, and even appreciating more things around me. I encourage you all to take the negative memories you have and try to turn them into something that gives off light and growth.

Entry : Kiaina

P.S. China colored in this beautiful drawing that her friend did for her.

Follow Me to Happiness 

We see so many people just in a day. But do we ever stop to think if these people are going through anything, or if that person truly has a smile on their face; because, they are happy. For the past month, I have been struggling with being happy. Being away at college has been the hardest thing I have ever done in my life, and it has not gotten easier despite me being here for now three years. I just started to think how do I pull myself up, and get back to being truly happy, and I realized the only way to do that is by stepping back and finding myself. I have started to think about what makes me happy, who makes me happy, and how I want to be happy moving forward. 


For this thoughtful Thursday I do just want to encourage those that are not happy to know you are not alone, and take some time to find you. I have not found who I am as an individual yet, but I am starting at the bottom which i’m okay with. Get rid of all the toxic in your life, but do it in the right way. I am owning all of my flaws and things i have done wrong, and that has helped me get on the road to true happiness.

I’m that Girl

Hey Miss Lady,

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I know these past fews months have been very difficult for you, but I am writing this letter to you to let you know that all of this is just a test of your strengthen. Don’t allow these obstacles to determine who you are as a person. I know it’s been very hard because you don’t know exactly what is wrong with you. It’s not depression, but it’s not happiness either. You are just upset with yourself because you don’t have control of what is going on. I know you are always the one to be organized and to be aware of what is going on. This is driving you crazy because you just don’t have a handle on things. It seems as if your academic, love and health life is where it should not be. Well, let me tell you something, your grades DO NOT define the intelligence you hold in that brain of yours. You never were a good test taker to begin with, but you always found your strengthens to succeed. It always tends to give you anxiety, but just try your best and study your best. For your love life, girl you are beautiful, smart, outspoken and so much more. DO NOT chase anyone, let them come to you. If they want to be with you or be in your life, they will make the time to be there. Guys tend to be jerks. Well, not all of them, but sometimes women tend to know what they want more than guys do. You only 21 though so like you need to have a little fun, date around a little. For your health lifestyle, you are never going to become health if you don’t do it for yourself and put your mind to it. You have to dig deep and pull out that dedication. I know you want beautiful skin that glows, so learn how to eat a little better my darling love.

Take a minute or two right now and reflect on all the greatness that you have accomplished. Stop dwelling on the negative aspects of life. You are just so powerful and I think you be forgetting that. Like pick that crown up and shine baby girl. You are everything and so much more. I just hate that you bring yourself down sometimes. You know the potential you have so live up to it. Did you forget that you inspire people to love themselves every single day? Did you forget how much your family adores you for being so outspoken ? Did you forget how much your nephew loves you and thinks you are the best titi in the world ? Did you forget that your smile brightens up your own day? Did you forget that you are living life and life is about making mistakes and learning from them ?

Don’t forget to be you

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Entry: Tanaya 

Written on 03/29/2017 | Published 04/06/2017

P.S. I am progressing and I am not in a more positive state of mind 💕